Wow! I didn't know how hard it would be to try to take care of myself. I am exhausted from it. I woke up this morning, walked 2 miles with a friend, and then went to a meeting which took up basically 9:30 to 3, by the time I picked up my employee, drove there, and then attended the meeting, and came back after dropping her off.

I did do some thinking and research in advance of the meeting and it definately did pay off. It felt good to know that the client appreciated all of our advance work.

The harder part today was standing up for myself. My house was really dirty, dishes in the sink, a full, clean dishwasher. And my husband stands up after dinner and walks away with his plate on the table. He says, "I need to call my father (guilt)". and I stand up, and look at him and say " we need to vacuum, we need to clear the table, we need to empty the dishwasher, and we need to get our daughter (7) into the bath and into bed. Which of these do you want to do?" Funny, he decided to vaccum. He did about 2/3 of what needed to be done but it took a load off of me.

It just felt wierd to make him do this but at the same time, it dawned on me how unfair it was when I didn't ask him to help. He came upstairs later and said, what do you want me to do now? so that was positive. I just also had to text message my 21 year old because I gave him money to buy parts for his car and he spent money on skiing. So I did text message him to say, i cannot believe you did that, that money was for your car. Anyway I blasted him for it and now I'm done.



Then my daughter proceeded to moan and you know, do the 'kid thing'. She was tired.